A dancer and his shadow
Once bounded
By love…
With every move
The shadow was there
Following him
Whenever he fell…
Sunrise…
The dancer stood in the light
But the shadow lingered in the darkness
Waiting…
The sunset is soon to come

A dancer and his shadow
Once bounded
By love…
With every move
The shadow was there
Following him
Whenever he fell…
Sunrise…
The dancer stood in the light
But the shadow lingered in the darkness
Waiting…
The sunset is soon to come

Walls for no one but us
Dimmed lights, I was too shy
Separate skins and lust
His sultry lips told no lie
Two beds, late night
Our skins craved the friction
As his laid far from mine
Distance of great affliction
I reached out and grabbed his arm
Taking possession of his shell
My cheek laid across the warmth
“Just release me from this hell.”
……………………………………………………………………..
Her eyes fluttered
As she fell asleep
My blood boiled
Every time she breathed
I pushed her away
But I was too weak
I caved against her skin
Before my lips sunk deep
She moaned as her body raged
While mine was covered in sweat
I gripped her arms above her head
To take her all the way, but instead-
……………………………………………………………………..
“Stop,” I breathed
He caged my lips
And claimed me like a beast…

Four years old
The little girl watches
The adults fighting
Her voice is too low
They won’t listen…
A knife in hand
The man is cruel
The little girl faces him
To protect the woman
He doesn’t listen…
Innocent eyes watch him
But he doesn’t see
The little girl remains
The knife touches the woman
Blood…
No one listens…

I never understood what spirituality really was. For me, it was related to religion. It was a state of religious dedication, but I’ve never been more wrong in my life. Instead of focusing on myself, my soul, and my presence, I found myself running after fulfilling religious duties.
I was taught how to pray in order to find God. I was instructed to follow a certain path in order to reach heaven and eventually God. Damn… I’ve been deceived for so long.
Spirituality is the biggest revelation you’ll ever stumble upon. Everything becomes clear. You suddenly feel better about yourself. You accept yourself after being so concerned with becoming a better person in the eyes of society and the religion you’ve been taught.
Finding meaning in everything you do and experiencing a connection to your soul and your being isn’t something you find in the shallow way religion is handed to you. You’re given a set of rules and a handbook, and all you have to do is follow them without finding a meaning in whatever it is you’re doing.
But you shouldn’t settle. Don’t settle for a handbook and move around robotically.
You find relief and security in being religious, but there’ll always be something missing. A need to be more. A need to find a meaning and a connection. A need to embrace life instead of fearing a misstep that will drive you to hell.
Am I good enough? Is God pleased with me? Will God punish me?
Don’t you ask yourself these questions on a daily basis?
Stop!
God isn’t holding a cane and waiting to bash you with it when you sidetrack from the “handbook”.
God is greater than that. God is merciful. God is LOVE.
Think of God as the world’s perfect father, and then more. Your father will stand by you no matter what you do, no matter how many times you mess up. If your father does that, then what do you expect from God? Shouldn’t we expect more from God?
I choose to be spiritual, but I’m still religious. I choose to be both because I found love in both. I found God in both. I found the “full picture” in both.
Do not fear God. Do not fear the afterlife. If you open up your heart and allow love to settle in, then you’re allowing God to enter your being. You’re allowing God to reside in your heart, and from that point on, you’ll be stronger than ever. You’ll be fearless. You’ll be whole.
God is your one-man army, and trust me, you’ll conquer everything with this army.